One Realization down...

(Sipping coffee at Gloria Jeans, free WIFI (yay), Jhumpa Lahiri set aside for a while to write my blog). Feeling like a hypocrite right now, sitting in a fancy cafe at Taksim Square, reading news which is obviously depressing. Instead of buying that coffee, I could have actually bought food to feed children who are dying in starvation. I know this. So, why did I choose this hazelnut coffee?

Prior to my arrival in Istanbul, I had carefully planned my future. Impressed with the "plan" myself. Discussed my plans with family and friends and it sounded great. I was working towards it since my second year of university in Manila. 2008 came...my first year in Toronto. Plans were still being made, working, volunteering so that there was no room to waste any time. Exhausted myself out completely! I was turning into this mad woman, actually turning into a depressed one. Believe me! No kidding. Planning. Thinking. Wanting. trying to remain focussed----all that was happening!
Now that I'm in Istanbul, I'm getting time to know myself again. I lost that old Remy who took life as it came. Interning at KAGIDER (although I still don't know what exactly I would be doing for the next three months)has confused me again which means those plans I have been putting together do not apply to me anymore. Huh?
I'm actually happy. No more plans! Super... I'm this dot again who is going to sail through and through. I'm complete because I'm free of all those plans.
One Realization down...