FOR SIMRITH!

I am in pain and the pain I'm referring to cannot be cured.

I can't provide strength and comfort to my best friend who needs me right now and I'm helpless right now, I hate to live with this helplesness for I have the means to do something about it but I'm still restraint. It sucks!
On the other hand, I spoke to a friend , a person who I have always admired for his openness. It was an interesting conversation that took place after 2 months which ended up quite badly.

Right now, I'm not exposed to anything for I'm confined within the boundaries of Manila. I met two amazing people here, my two gurus who have taught me a lot through their experiences and I have noticed that the gap widens each time I go back home and now I can only think of one person who understands me and who doesn't judge me at all. Six years on that hill top, they were certainly my best times but today after speaking to my good old friend, I have to rethink because that was not me who I was back then.
A naive, ignorant and conservative person!
So, those were my twelve years. I didn't change at all or probably I didn't want to.

"I thought you were from a very good family"- now that caught my attention and I lost.
It's so very convenient for men to contradict themselves each time. I think they are really facing some serious issues. Whenever I remember of an incident that took place when I was in Grade 11, I feel like an idiot investing so much time which was worthless.
When I look at my brother, I'm relieved and proud of who holds values of respect and tolerance truly.
If the men are seeking for respect, they better start getting their act together for all I can say it has to be mutual.